Truth

Today I shift my perception slightly, just enough to see the Truth.

The last few days I've been noticing habits, my own conditioning, and how I repeat myself again and again in the way I've been interacting with everyone, even in the way I meditate. Have any of you noticed your own repetitive habits, also?

It's pretty stilted this repetition of conditioned behavior, like being stuck on the scratched part of a Dvd, that keeps going back to the same spot, the same scratch again and again, because the scratch has been ingrained that way. It takes some cleaning or a bit of serious rattling to shift off of the glitch, the scratch. The scratch is especially deep because of the repetition - we keep perceiving, interacting, refusing to see the same patterns over and over. They've become ingrained that way.

But now, there's a shifting that's happening because of our own awareness of what we've been doing. A friend of mine is studying the twelve step process of freeing oneself from addiction. I don't know much about that, but I suspect jostling one's self out of repetitive conditioning and patterns is a similar process.

Once we come out of our unaware dream, the patterns we've stuck ourselves in over time, we'll be thirsty for Truth.

So the prayer becomes one for refreshment:

We've been parched out her in this desert of illusion.
Help us get past our habits to what's Real.
Beyond movement, beyond space, beyond the time that isn't there,
Through all this please,
To You,
Holding me together, expanded and imploded.

I'm ready for the Eternal.