Noticing what's really happening, the endless tirade of fake distractions that keep popping up in the mind is key to fearlessness.
It's important to be the observer and not simply walk through life in a daze. When the ego chatter becomes too loud it's impossible to see or even visualize what's real. That's when we can become baffled about what to do here and now, because we've allowed ourselves to become confused.
It's as if we've created a lie, and then come to fear it. But what isn't real in the first place is harmless. Only thoughts produced by repetitious ego chatter can harm us. It is necessary to release those thoughts to become fearless. Our fearlessness is necessary for us to be kind.
My biggest fear is a lack of funding, ending up on skid row, and bringing my family, my husband and my dear, sweet daughter there with me. Much of my own ego torture involves thoughts about how impractical I am, how useless any pursuit is that doesn't rake in immediate funds. What can I say? I went to school in the 80s. I realize starvation's not even the actual fear; my real fear is a fear of the fear itself. I want to follow the truth of what's happening, I realize my ego thoughts are poison, and yet I still find myself stumped. The only solution is to remember over and over again to sit still, and let my mind become clear.
It's easy to be fearless when every thing's clear, obvious.
It helps to remember I'm afraid of fear then, that it's all psychological. Just noticing that I'm so afraid of letting everyone else down, especially the truth, really does make the fear dissipate. That and a strong "Begone!" in its direction.
Today I say "Begone!" to the fear that would twist my love for those precious to me into something defensive. Today I'll stop spinning and start noticing what is really happening.
The mantra for today is RELAX and be the observer - a fearless observer. And that feels pretty good.
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